Art saved me; it got me through my depression and self-loathing, back to a place of innocence. ~ Jeanette Winterson ~
The story behind the story
Black Dog, my first novel, was inspired by the knowledge that many young people
are so deep in despair that they consider suicide. I've been there myself, and in writing the
novel I have drawn on my own experience of depression to try to give the reader a new
perspective, and through that, hope.
As a friend of mine puts it, “suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary
problem.” I've been so low that the problems seem overwhelming—and suicide seems
like an attractive answer. It's not. It's devastating for those left behind and it leaves
many questions unanswered. To put it bluntly, suicide creates more problems than it
Often, a sympathetic ear and an understanding heart are all that's needed to reassure a
depressed person that they are special and loved. It's my hope that Black Dog might
provide that ear and heart for someone who needs it.
Black Dog is available for download in several formats. Please see the downloads page.
Notes and Thanks
"Black dog" is the name Sir Winston Churchill, Britain's prime minister during World
War II, gave to his depression. Although this is probably the best-known use of the term,
there is evidence that it didn't originate with Churchill. In ‘Black
dog’ as a metaphor for depression: a brief history, Paul Foley examines the
origins of the expression.
This is a work of fiction. The people portrayed do not exist, and the events described
did not take place. Any similarities between my characters and people you know are pure
coincidence. The places and localities I've used are real, and pretty much as
Family and friends helped immensely by critiquing my work. Many thanks to Tad; Penny
and David; and Nikki.
Thank you, too, to my family for their enthusiastic encouragement!
The guys at The Mail Crew, whose site is no longer online, went out of their way to
beta read every chapter of Black Dog. In addition Aaron and Rain offered many
helpful editing suggestions. Thanks for all your help, guys!
From chapter four, Black Dog was edited by Azyclar. My writing benefited
greatly from his hard work. Thanks Azy!